I would very much want to update this space but some things are better left unsaid. If you are close enough to me, you will probably know what is happening to me.

Life have been pretty much the same for me. Work and work, and at times i kinda belive that some people cannot be on shift because their luck is very bad. As in very very bad, because whenever they are on shift patients collapse, admissions like nobody's business. Last time i never believe in such things, ok maybe i was a student back then, so it doesn't affect me much. For now, i shall just strongly believe in the ward taboos. Shall just continue to work harder and pray that my luck is good. LOL

Finally over and done with the case presentation. Had like a few episodes of chest pain today, totally had no idea why. Did an ECG in the ward, and my T waves are peak which meant hyperkalemia. It could be the reason for the arrthymia and pain. But wth, why why would i even have increase k+ in my body. Ok, whatever the MO said everything looks fine for my ECG. The roster is out and my preceptor is juriah. Very nice motherly senior=) Time to get ready to learn all the important stuffs, im still not very sure on death procedures, which is freaking important because seventh month coming=more last offices, admissions from a&e, drug dilution and the resuscitation algorithim.

I miss my silly boy so much=( Thinking about the stupid shifts i have to work on weekends just turn me off TOTALLY. I really hope he understands.

My weekend was smashing fun with baby. Saturday we went powerhouse to dance the night away. Saw many weird people. Make me feel like laughing just thinking about them. LOL. Sunday was the happiest day for this year. I have never been this happy as in smiling whole day. I sound so psychotic. HAHA. Ok anyway, bb brought me to universal studio.=)))) Super super fun. We tried almost all the rides, and now im so damn tired but im still trying to stay awake to do my case study. Shall upload some pics.

There is more pictures, but im damn lazy to upload again. Go experience it if you can, freaking freaking fun!!!

Anyway, im gonna be a sadist for the whole of 1 month, just like my friends who can only meet bf on weekends=( Bb is going for his reservice next week. I think i will go malaysia with dad every saturday, can R&R and see what he is up to also. Kill two bird with one stone ok. HAHA.

I realised i have not been blogging lately. Ok,work has just officially started. Still in the "honeymoon" period because we are being attached to a staff. Doing the usual routines like turning, taking blood every 2 hours from the IA line, charting every hour. Im still pretty fine with all this. Still trying to learn how to titrate drugs according to patient's condition. All the staffs are pretty nice and they are freaking fast. I'm still so slow, not in learning but doing. I have no idea why im so scared of opening glass ampoules, and all the freaking emergency drugs are in ampoules. HOW like that? People can break without wearing gloves, i must wear to overcome my own fear. So fucked up. And those grieving relatives just made me feel worse. I don't wanna comsole them and yet i can't smile to them. Felt so bad because i can't do anything, just in case i cry with them. How embarrasing and un-professional if i cry with them. So i always avoid them. Someday when i build up my courage, i will being myself forward to them.

Ok, im so bored now. Im blogging random stuffs to entertain myself. I went to amore to do the spa that baby bought for me yesterday. He went there in the morning with his sister, and coincidentally we got the same masseuse. Today went out with my brother the whole afternoon to get his stuffs done. Helping him to do stuffs cause he is a temporary crippled. LOL. He even ask me to park at the handicap lot. So funny. Then i went to NTUC and i randomly bought so many junks which i actually dont think i will eat. I just feel like spending money. Maybe im just bored and cookie doesn't wanna entertain me. =(

I really regretted taking the damn mc last week. Totally not because of the money, its the things i missed out on that very day. The b-bruaun vendor was down for the competent check and all other very important things. Now i have so many things to catch up. Luckily i have a damn nice preceptor. Im missing bb so much. He is away for the 3rd day=( Tomorrow is our 9th monthsary. I have so many things to tell him and i can't wait for him to be back. Come back safely, SILLY BOY!!! 3 more days before he is back. I want him back so badly=((((

I have so many things to update but i don't know where to start from. Ok, maybe i should start from my birthday. Bb surprised me with so many things. Im super super touched, because nobody has ever done that for me before. Thank you bb. Missing him so much now. =(
Thank you for everything baby. Your existence to me is god sent.

Ok, these past few days haven been a breeze to me but im glad its all over. Saturday was out with bb the whole day. We went to qian hu to do fish spa. So ticklishly fun. Sunday met bb to go expo for food fair and then home to study for my iv adminstration. It so boring pls. Kill me pls.

Just as i thought i've graduated, there is more things to study now. -_- The I/V drug adminstration calculation is killing me. So damn difficult la, still must use algebra to solve it. Don't tell me being a nurse is easy, i will slap whoever who says that. I still have no motivation to study. HOW HOW HOW!!!!

Graduation day was awesome. Seeing my classmates once again made me miss school so much. The carefree time, no responsible for life and happy as ever to skip classes. But whatever it is, im moving on to the next phase of my life , wish me luck. There is some more photos, but as usual im lazy to turn it and upload it.

Its sunday, and how i wish its only friday. I have been lazing around for the whole sunday. Sleep and wake up, read and re- read old messages. I just love to read old messages from bb because it is so sweet, and as time passes no more such things. Well, sad but i guess this is reality. But he is still nice to me though=))) Bb is so addicted to wii. He have been wii-ing ever since last week.

Orientation programme is tiring, its like going to school. Just passed my venepuncture and intravenous cannula insertion. There is still I/V policy, guidelines and some other pharmacological theory test coming up. Super super dry. After this one month, i have 6 more weeks of intensive training with the icu stuffs. OMG. The machines in icu is cool shit. One button can do wonders, like monitoring the IA, CVP and other lines. Damn freaking cool.

Ok anyway, im very insipired by my NCs because there were the ones that actually nurse my mom in her last journey. They really did a great job and i really wanna be like them.

Today is a very very bad day. Bad start with bad argument. Whatever it is, its all over. Have been feeling very sad for the whole freaking day. When im all alone i think even more. Sometimes i wish things are simpler.

It has been a while since i last blog. Officially started work, going MICU. Im damn sure many challenges ahead. All the inotropes, infusion pumps, IA lines and whatever nonsense line which i've never touch before during my student days. I don't know if it is a good start to actually start out somewhere so stress. 12 may we will be posted to our wards, so not prepared. I hope i will meet nice colleagues.

Im actually pretty depressed because im starting work so soon. Monday is the day i will know where i will be posted to. Really kinda scared. *cross fingers,legs* Seriously not prepared to don on that uniform, it carries so much of responsibility.

Still have to pay $100 to get the practising cert. So ex la for this card.

ps: when is my cough gonna recover??? I WANT TO EAT CHOCOLATES!!!!

Im finally back from all my holidays. Anyway it was hard on bb. Sorry bb and thank you:) Im left with like a total of 19 more days to enjoy before i step my foot back in cgh to be an official staff and slog for a total of 3 years before i leave. Anyway BKK with ting was a fruitful trip because i bought most of the things i wanted on my list. t-shirts and more t-shirts, bags,hairbands,luggage,i-phone casings and the aladdin suit. HAHA. If you wanna see more photos kindly go to my facebook. Can you belive that i have not unpack my luggage from the beijing trip until now? LOL. The damn luggage is still sitting in my room. Im waiting for my dad's and bro's clothes to dry before i can wash mine. I admit i have plenty to wash. GODAMN IT.

yea, been and done that:)

Just came back from bangkok and i'm leaving tomorrow again. Im feeling so guilty for leaving bb in sg for so long. Sorry baby. Just felt super happy for everything that he did for me. I can really feel the love. Thank you for loving me. Thanks for being there whenever i needed you. I thank god i found you.=))))

Hello im back, im still thinking whether should i change my blog add. Anyway im feeling so damn good now because i just drank my favourite drink. Hot chocolate with marshmellow is SEX. It taste damn good la.

Bought this with bb, i love the elise biscuits. Bb love the nonsense rabbit biscuits. I shall try it later. =)

6th monthsary with bb. We celebrated it on the 9th, to be exact our anniversary should be on the 10th because he finally got the balls to hold my hands on the 10th at 12 plus in the morning. HAHA. But he is still my sweetest boy=))) Love him TTM. I like all the photos taken that day!!! All so nice, thanks to my dslr. HAHA

Anyway yesterday was shun hua's birthday, so we went out to celebrate for him at k-box. Bb was damn high, never drink liquor also can be so high.LOL. Surprise him with a cake. HAHA

We bought the cannot blow out candles to trick him. So funny. LOL

Dancing to his mj song -_-I cam-whore in the meantime.

Thats all peeps, bye

I have so many things to blog!!! Ok anyway, this is what i told my brother at 3am(which is now) in facebook. LOL.

2:55amWendy
pls dun eat my maggie mee in the kitchen
thanks
haha
2:56amKelvin
maggie mee?
i go find later..
2:56amWendy
my taiwan maggie mee
i got count
dun eat

My brother is a thief at home. He always steal my drinks,chocolates and wadever nonsense in the fridge. It really pisses me off when i come home and cannot find it. He finds it really funny everytime i scold him. Sick or wad.

Ok, anyway friday was at chalet with bb=)))) loves the bbq food. So damn good. So many photos to upload, and again if you are interested go my fb and check it out.


Saturday was a bad bad day for me because my car battery died and we were stuck in bugis for so damn long waiting for battery man to come.The worst thing is he brought the wrong battery down. -_- But the battery man was nice enough to go back and get the correct one down for us. Go to KIM HO if you wanna change battery=))) Good service and cheap. Thank you bb for waiting under the sorching sun with me. I really meant sorching because i practically sweat like i went for some 2.4km run.





Sunday was spent revamping my room=)) bb and shun hua came over my house and painted my room green. So nice. I really love my room now. I will take a photo when im free. HAHA

Thanks for everything bb. I feel so loved and pampered by him. Im loving my silly boy more and more each day=))))