Finally over and done with the case presentation. Had like a few episodes of chest pain today, totally had no idea why. Did an ECG in the ward, and my T waves are peak which meant hyperkalemia. It could be the reason for the arrthymia and pain. But wth, why why would i even have increase k+ in my body. Ok, whatever the MO said everything looks fine for my ECG. The roster is out and my preceptor is juriah. Very nice motherly senior=) Time to get ready to learn all the important stuffs, im still not very sure on death procedures, which is freaking important because seventh month coming=more last offices, admissions from a&e, drug dilution and the resuscitation algorithim.

I miss my silly boy so much=( Thinking about the stupid shifts i have to work on weekends just turn me off TOTALLY. I really hope he understands.

My weekend was smashing fun with baby. Saturday we went powerhouse to dance the night away. Saw many weird people. Make me feel like laughing just thinking about them. LOL. Sunday was the happiest day for this year. I have never been this happy as in smiling whole day. I sound so psychotic. HAHA. Ok anyway, bb brought me to universal studio.=)))) Super super fun. We tried almost all the rides, and now im so damn tired but im still trying to stay awake to do my case study. Shall upload some pics.

There is more pictures, but im damn lazy to upload again. Go experience it if you can, freaking freaking fun!!!

Anyway, im gonna be a sadist for the whole of 1 month, just like my friends who can only meet bf on weekends=( Bb is going for his reservice next week. I think i will go malaysia with dad every saturday, can R&R and see what he is up to also. Kill two bird with one stone ok. HAHA.

I realised i have not been blogging lately. Ok,work has just officially started. Still in the "honeymoon" period because we are being attached to a staff. Doing the usual routines like turning, taking blood every 2 hours from the IA line, charting every hour. Im still pretty fine with all this. Still trying to learn how to titrate drugs according to patient's condition. All the staffs are pretty nice and they are freaking fast. I'm still so slow, not in learning but doing. I have no idea why im so scared of opening glass ampoules, and all the freaking emergency drugs are in ampoules. HOW like that? People can break without wearing gloves, i must wear to overcome my own fear. So fucked up. And those grieving relatives just made me feel worse. I don't wanna comsole them and yet i can't smile to them. Felt so bad because i can't do anything, just in case i cry with them. How embarrasing and un-professional if i cry with them. So i always avoid them. Someday when i build up my courage, i will being myself forward to them.