2010 is not a good year for me. I have been so emotional these few days. I keep reminding myself this is gonna be over soon, in about 30 more days or so i will be graduating. I should be strong to swallow her nonsense. Just felt that its really unfair of her to judge me in that way. I really had no choice but to call my mentor. I literally broke down and cried to her. Thanks for hearing me out, MS K. I don't need a change of ward, but just peace in working( its really good enough). I really just don't understand why must she do this to all of us? Bringing us down and making us so miserable. I seriously dread going to work everyday, and that passion in nursing is slowly fading away in me. I really don't want that to happen just because of her. I used to remember how much i really wanted this as a job but now i just wanna get 30k and pay back the bond. It sucks so much to go to work everyday. I've never felt that way for the past three years, none of the wards i've went to make me felt that way. I guess its not the ward problem, its her problem. I should get up from my feet, tell myself im strong. I wanna be a nurse because i wanna make a difference. I really don't ask for much, but a sincere thank you from the patient makes all the shitty hours worth it. I cross my fingers that i won't go back to the same ward.

Enough of my ranting, just wanna thank bb for hearing me out and being there for me. Yesterday timbre took my mind off a while. I'm really happy being with you.

i love you for loving me
i love you for being there for me
i love you for being you
i love you for your nonsense( the rabbit nose,pasta mania) to cheer me up
i love you for the way you plan things ahead
i love you for the things you have done for me
i love you more each day baby